Stay alert, be in prayer

Mark 14:32-42 (The Message Version)

They came to an area called Gethsemane. Jesus told his disciples, "Sit here while I pray." He took Peter, James, and John with him. He plunged into a sinkhole of dreadful agony. He told them, "I feel bad enough right now to die. Stay here and keep vigil with me."
Going a little ahead, he fell to the ground and prayed for a way out: "Papa, Father, you can - can't you? - get me out of this. Take this cup away from me. But please, not what I want - what do you want?"
He came back and found them sound asleep. He said to Peter, "Simon, you went to sleep on me? Can't you stick it out with me a single hour? Stay alert, be in prayer, so you don't enter the danger zone without even knowing it. Don't be naive. Part of you is eager, ready for anything in God; but another part is as lazy as an old dog sleeping by the fire."
He then went back and prayed the same prayer. Returning, he again found them sound asleep. They simply couldn't keep their eyes open, and they didn't have a plausible excuse.
He came back a third time and said, "Are you going to sleep all night? No- you've slept long enough. Time's up. The Son of Man is about to be betrayed into the hands of sinners. Get up. Let's get going. My betray has arrived. "


That day we read the Bible together in the night prayer meeting(we read in Chinese version), for this scriptures I wondered, Jesus asked his disciples to pray, but pray for what? pray that Jesus will not be betrayed? or pray that when Jesus be crucified he will not feel too painful? No, his disciples didn't know about all these even Jesus had prophesid to them about what is going to happen, his disciples didn't understand.
So, pray for what?
In that Chinese version the scriputres not so clearly, from The Message Version I understand more.
Be in alert and be in prayer is a way to prepare our hearts to face the challenges will happen in the future. Yes, through prayers, our hearts can be prepared, so we will not make wrong decision as Peter cut the ear of the priest's servant in a hurry situation.
Yes, stop sleeping! I've slept long enough.
Thank God for the talk with Pastor n his wife last Sat. About my going to US, I just need to be more alert and see myself as a full time servant of God. No more shaking.
What I need to do is spend more time in PRAYERS. To know the will of God and have the heart of God to face all the challenges.
Praise God. Jesus just loves me so much. He knows my weakness, but He still accept and teach me step by step. I love you my Lord becos You loved me first.

Valentine

Today is Valentine Day...
Somehow....feel lonely? feel empty?
I know Jesus is my love and only His love can satisfy me, but my heart is still not satisfied...
becos of what had just happened these days.

I just wonder....why it's so difficult for me to get into a deeper relationship?
I've declined some people to be their girlfriend. That's my decision why I have to feel lonely now?
But....I just want to keep my heart for the right one whom God prepared for me.
Someone said to me that if you don't get into it how you can prove it is true love or not?
maybe his word is right....
but....I just don't want to get into a relationship which i'm not sure its from God or not.
I'm afraid that if I say yes, but that one is not the right one for me, then I will miss the right one.
It can be saying that its easy to get a boyfriend, also can be saying it is not easy to have a boyfriend.
If I get inot a relationship I will love with all my heart, I can't endure any breaking up, that's the reason why i'm just very careful with this love affair thing...
I desire it, but I don't want to spoil it.
God knows who is the best for me.
I will wait until the day comes.

Happy Valentine!

第二專長

主日結束後的社青小組，討論到第二專長

突然發現，咦，我好像沒有什麼專長ㄝ？第一專長是什麼都要想很久

一直以來想當通才，什麼都懂，但都不專精

也不像別人念大學四年有個技術

我在韓國唸了什麼ㄋ？ 韓文 and 一點點ㄉ敬拜讚美學

也許語言是我的專長，翻譯英文和韓文，學習語文也很快
那第二專長也許是音樂囉？
這是上帝給我的恩賜，要好好培養發揮才行

今天在坐火車上班的路上，想著我在韓國到底學到ㄌ什麼
我覺得我學ㄌ很多 那是什麼 釐清出
發現 我學到ㄌ很寶貴ㄉ東西
自己的生命被調整是很多很多ㄉ
也許沒有學到當初我所想ㄉ神學或敬拜與讚美學ㄉ知識
但卻用生命去體驗到了

另外，學到很寶貴的是
在一個全球巡迴的佈道會or聚會ㄉ團隊中 什麼時候該扮演什麼角色
台上ㄉ敬拜團樂器... 台下ㄉ招待翻譯接待... 台前 台後 會前的預備 會中的服事 會後的處理...
這都是非常難得的經驗
我也很享受在其中
幾乎各個服事都跑過
最享受的就是音樂事奉 and 翻譯

覺得上帝真美 一路想起來 真的是 神的帶領ㄝ

以後應該是會跟著非爸一起世界巡迴佈道
我就能像是個秘書 或是帶領敬拜禱告者 也能與世界各地接洽
找到自己的恩賜 熱情所在 耶穌的旨意 這就是異象

感謝主 真好：）

let go

Mark 17 - 27 (The Message version)

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Jesus looked him hard in the eye -- and loved him! He said, "There's one thing left: Go sell whatever you own and give it to the poor. All your wealth will then be heavenly wealth. And come follow me."
The man's face clouded over. This was the last thing he expected to hear, and he walked off with a heavy heart. He was holding on tight to a lot of things, and not about to let go.
Looking at his disciples, Jesus said, "Do you have any idea how difficult it is for people who 'have it all' to enter God's kingdom?" The disciples couldn't believe what they were hearing, but Jesus kept on: "You can't imagine how difficult. I'd say its easier for a camel to go through a needle's eye than for the rich to get into God's kingdom."
That set the disciples back on their heels. " Then who has any chance at all?" they asked.
Jesus was blunt: "No chance at all if you think you can pull it off by yourself. Every chance in the world if you let God do it."