Valentine

Today is Valentine Day...
Somehow....feel lonely? feel empty?
I know Jesus is my love and only His love can satisfy me, but my heart is still not satisfied...
becos of what had just happened these days.

I just wonder....why it's so difficult for me to get into a deeper relationship?
I've declined some people to be their girlfriend. That's my decision why I have to feel lonely now?
But....I just want to keep my heart for the right one whom God prepared for me.
Someone said to me that if you don't get into it how you can prove it is true love or not?
maybe his word is right....
but....I just don't want to get into a relationship which i'm not sure its from God or not.
I'm afraid that if I say yes, but that one is not the right one for me, then I will miss the right one.
It can be saying that its easy to get a boyfriend, also can be saying it is not easy to have a boyfriend.
If I get inot a relationship I will love with all my heart, I can't endure any breaking up, that's the reason why i'm just very careful with this love affair thing...
I desire it, but I don't want to spoil it.
God knows who is the best for me.
I will wait until the day comes.

Happy Valentine!